All my life I’ve had these little suicidal thoughts. Never enough to go through with it but it’s always at the back of my mind. I’ll just be driving down the road and it will pop up in my head that I could let go of the wheel and I’d swerve off the road into the ditch. It’s mostly thoughts while I’m driving. I think that way people won’t know I did it on purpose. I always thought these things were normal. It’s possible lots of people have these thoughts on a regular basis as well but that doesn’t make it normal. It’s definitely not normal. My life isn’t even terrible. I’ve had tough shit happen but I’ve made it through everything so far. Why would I want to take the easy way out?