This link has my feelings down to a T. I can’t believe how relatable it is. So this post is purely for me to add the link on for anyone to read. Especially if you’ve come out of a toxic relationship. Also on the other hand if you are with someone who has had toxic relationships and understanding them.
Have you ever wanted to kiss someone so badly. Your hands are just grasping onto every piece of them you can as your lips are searching theirs. I never thought that I’d experience one of those movie magic kisses but kissing you is just that. Movie magic. That sounds so cliche and silly but it’s so true.
Thank you for letting me down easy. I have spent so much time hoping for our friendship again. Hoping that we can go back to old us. The truth is we can’t. And you’re right maybe after all of this were just better off this way. I appreciate all the time we did spend together. All I have learned from you. All the pieces of me that I developed through our friendship. I will always care.
But I haven’t been grateful enough of the people I do have in my life. So here’s to them and all the great things they bring to my life.
Stephanie, my beautiful friend. You have been my biggest support. You never let your own bias get in the way of what I want. You have always been such a positive person in my life. For that I am so thankful to have you in my life.
Alex, the man I have learned the most from. You know me better than almost anyone. Even after months apart I still can talk to you about anything and everything. I appreciate you always being open to my weirdness. I will never grow bored of driving down a dark road with you in my passenger seat & the newest playlist coming through my speakers.
Alison, my oldest friend. You’re the most honest, caring, & loving soul I’ve ever met. You tell me the hard truth when you know I need it but still stand by me in my decisions. I’ve never felt safer knowing that you’re just a call or text away and you’d always be there.
I love you all. I am so lucky to have these similar but very different people in my life. My homework for myself is to tell the ones I love that I appreciate them.. and why I appreciate them.
Tonight he took my hand and we danced in the glow of the stove light. I don’t know how to dance. He was taken aback by that fact but he grabbed my waist and lead the way. He was smiling from ear to ear. Singing every word to “hooked on a feeling” by Blue Swede. This is a moment I want to remember for the rest of my life.
I’m afraid to keep falling…
Lately I’ve been playing music every moment I can. I stand in front of the mirror before a shower and dance like an idiot. I sing so loud driving in the truck I’m sure the passengers in cars around me will hear. There’s a little skip in my step.
Happiness is an effortless smile on my face. Happiness is feeling comfortable in my own decisions. Happiness is loving myself for every curve, stretch mark, and roll. Happiness is not looking for someone else to tell me I’m beautiful because I already know I am.